Something extraordinary occurred on May 20, 1988.
On that day, I stopped running from God. He had been after me for a while, but I didn't want him to have any say in my life. I wanted to live as I pleased, and perhaps have Jesus in my back pocket in case of emergency.
But in the early morning hours of May 20, 1988, I prayed a prayer of surrender. I don't remember the words, but it was bound up with Jesus Christ and his salvation and his Lordship. It took place in a Denny's restaurant, for what it's worth.
After I prayed that prayer, I knew something had happened - and indeed it had. Over the next weeks, I had a thirst to know God that had never been there before. I began devouring the gospels (the first four books of the New Testament), whereas in the past the Bible was just an inconvenient book on the shelf.
In time, it was clear I was a changed person. Changed on the inside. My attitudes and desires changed. Along with that, the plans for my future changed as well.
One thing I am convinced of -- Jesus changes us on the inside. The gospel is not simply about forgiveness ("Christians aren't perfect, just forgiven"). It's about transformation. It's about God rewiring you back to code, on the inside, so that parts of you begin to function that had previously been disconnected.
I did not "become a Christian" in the sense that I decided I believed something and tried hard to live accordingly. Rather, Jesus grabbed hold of me and made me his own.
I had done all sorts of hurtful things to others, and to myself, previous to that day. However, I wasn't experiencing turmoil in my life (the stereotypical time people might cry out to God for help); I was actually enjoying my life. And the fact that Jesus saved me did not mean that I was suddenly free of all sin and pride, unfortunately. But a process of repentance began, which meant that the pride and self-love had to slowly die -- and these were steadily replaced with worship and love for God.
For a more sophisticated presentation of what I've tried feebly to communicate here, I would encourage you to explore
here.